I have been out of the loop for a week. It was a deliberate lull from blogging and posting on both my personal and TMM Facebook accounts.
Our family has been overcome with grief with the loss of a nephew, Andrei, just 6 years old. He was bravely battling his congenital heart defect and its accompanying complications. We knew he was not ours. We knew his life may be shorter than we would wish for. What made it a little too difficult to bear was just 4 months ago, we lost Andrei’s Dad, Xavier, a dear cousin I grew up with, to a supposedly successful spine surgery.
My heart is broken for Xavier’s young family. I know, just like myself and The Husband, Xavier and his wife, Jho, had great dreams for their family. I know they imagined a time when Andrei would be happily and tirelessly running and clowning around with his Ate Abby, without gasping for air or needing his medications. I feel for my Tita Enggit, Xavier’s Mama and Andrei’s Lola. She recently retired from her nursing post in Saudi Arabia after being away from her family for years too many to count. I am sure she was looking forward to finally spending precious time with her kids and grandchildren.
Saturday, Andrei was laid to rest.
Yesterday, Sunday, while watching Pope Francis deliver his homily during his encounter with the youth at the UST, I thought of Andrei. I thought, maybe if he survived a few more days, we could have braved the crowds, brought him as close as we could to the Pope, and asked for a special healing prayer. Maybe, just maybe, he could have spent more time with his Mommy, Ate, Lola, or he could have been completely healed. Just as my mind swarmed with my maybes, I heard Pope Francis say: “Let us allow ourselves to be surprised by God.” My grieving, doubting heart was silenced. Somehow, I found personal solace in his words. Now, hopeful more than ever, I look forward to the reveal of God’s best surprises for Jho, Abby, and my Tita Enggit!
As I was lost in my own grief, I forgot how God has been unfolding His surprises for me and our family. A few days back, in fact, He surprised us with this:
Indeed, He is a God of surprises! He is faithful.